Yet He found me; I beheld Him
Bleeding on th’ accursed tree,
And my wistful heart said faintly,
“Some of self, and some of Thee.”
Day by day His tender mercy,
Healing, helping, full and free,
Brought me lower while I whispered,
“Less of self, and more of Thee.”
Higher than the highest heaven,
Deeper than the deepest sea,
Lord, Thy love at last has conquered:
“None of self, and all of Thee.”
The cool thing about this song is that for some people, it might represent a journey from a spiritual newbie to an older, mature Christian. But for many of us, I think this transformation must be a daily decision. You might wake up in the morning fully committed to letting Jesus’ love and mercy shine through you as you go about the Father’s business in your day.
But then something happens that triggers that human self-centeredness, or a particular point of pride that you haven’t let go of yet—and you’re back at “all of self and none of thee.” Suddenly, you’re the most important person on the planet again. This is natural human behavior, but it is not Christian behavior.
We must remember the words of 2 Corinthians 3:5, 6a: “Not that we are sufficient in ourselves to consider anything as coming from ourselves, but our sufficiency is from God, who also made us sufficient to be ministers of a new covenant.”
As young women who are blessed enough to live in a developed country, to be able to attend worship freely, and to pursue our educations, we must strive to never slip into the trap of thinking that we are adequate in and of ourselves, that the blessings we experience daily are the result of our own hard work, that we deserve to be called a daughter of the most High God. None of us deserve that high honor.
Let this song bring you back to where you need to be: in a place of humility, just like Christ. In Philippians 2:5-8, we read: “In your relationships with one another, have the same mindset as Christ Jesus: Who, being in very nature God, did not consider equality with God something to be used to his own advantage; rather, he made himself nothing by taking the very nature of a servant, being made in human likeness. And being found in appearance as a man, he humbled himself by becoming obedient to death– even death on a cross!”
Let His love conquer you anew every day, bringing you back to the place of humility and awe, so that you may say, “none of self, and all of thee.”